lightless days by disaster

[fluttertorn]

disaster.

xx. i forgot how long i have been alone in this world. it has been so long that i simply forgot to count. the days were endless and now i hardly noticed the light that shown around me. these were lightless days. i had become accustomed with being here alone in the darkness. that was until the first rays of light hit my yesterday... when i was farther into the loner lands with chaos. i wasn't stupid and i knew that wasn't his real name. but i wouldn't have considered questioning it. especially infront of all the other cats. because there were so many other cats there. he must have had a reason not to tell the other cats. and so with a silent sigh; i laid down here in my lonely den. chaos wouldn't know about this place... at least i hoped not. this was where i ran when the night closed in around me. and no cat had found it yet... and if i had anything to say about it; no cat will. with a sigh i closed my eyes and felt a tear roll down my face. i cleared my throat as it felt as though it was swelling in protest. a single tear rolled down my face as i curled up into my sleeping position. but i didn't sleep. now i just cried; and cried. the salty things left a strong smell around me and i choked on it before starting to cry all the more. so much time had passed and still the tears poured. at last i stopped crying; but no matter how tired i was; i couldn't bring myself to sleep. so i just laid there alone. where i would always be... always alone.

[lithe]

chaos.

xx. his mind raced, where did she go? questions flashed past as he felt a small panic arise in his chest. where did she go? where has she gone? i feel empty without her. i need her. where is she? he raised his white and brown muzzle to the air, searching for her scent. where? he whipped his head back and forth, looking for paw prints, anything telling him where she had gone, where his love had gone. his eyes widened, catching the light of the ending dusk and glowing in the darkness. disaster! he called, his voice rough from the bile rising in his throat. he had never needed to see another cats face so badly, never needed someone such as he need someone now. he wanted to be with her. to nuzzle her cheek and curl himself around her and sleep. to keep the cold away from her lonely heart. i have to find her, he hissed.

xx. his strong, massive legs carried his far and fast, her scent growing stronger as he neared her. the wind pushed back his fur, rippling his intricate leopard spots and slowing his momentum. he ran harder, his muddy eyes intense on finding her, on seeing her. his need was strong. why do i feel this way? he wondered, his eyes searching carefully. her scent became suddenly stronger and he slowed to a stop. his whiskers twitched and his large body quivered with anticipation. he could scent her in a cave nearby hidden behind dense bush, but none the less he could see it. salt? he questioned himself. the scent of salt was faint but he could smell it, and her... he pushed forward, forcing himself through the brush and tearing off tufts of fur. disaster... he whispered. he approached her slowly; sensing she was awake he licked at her tears and sat near her flanks. disaster... i love you, stay with me forever.

[fluttertorn]

xx. a silence coated the den in the silent night as she laid there. her muscles screamed to move; to be allowed to move. but she wouldn't allow it. she just stared at the dark spots in the dirt tat marked where her tears fell. she laid in silence as she flicked her tail faintly. but other than that; the abused she-cat didn't move. her heart hurt her. it ached and it made her curl up and whimpered in protest as the lonely feelings crashed over her. and she laid their limply; staring at the cave walls as they felt like they were closing in around her. she knew there was something there that was going to change the way she lived. but she didn't know what could possibly make her know that.

xx. but when she heard something crash through the bramble of her hiding place; she simply closed her eyes. she hoped that something would stop it. but then a form entered her den. and she heard her name in the night. she slowly blinked open her bright teal eyes that sparkled with the wary tears that touched her face. she stared at him as he stood there. but then she closed her eyes. he licked away her tears and then spoke to her. and she simply closed her eyes again. what could she say to that? she wanted to just tell him to go away. she wasn't good enough for something like love. she knew that and had it shown countless times. but her tears came and something stopped her from being able to say no. i love you too.

[/color] she whispered as she pressed herself into his side and closed er eyes against his flank. she wanted to cry again; but her heart protested as it fluttered and became lighter than its usual heavy load. and then she did cry. not out of sadness. out of finally finding where she belonged.[/blockquote][/blockquote]

[lithe]

xx. he felt all her sorrow, all her heartbreak and loneliness; all of it was fading. slowly, yes but it was fading. his warmth and love; the love and happiness that emanated seemed to be changing her. he wanted her to know she could feel safe curled against him; that she could always depend on him being there to comfort her when the loneliness and sorrow closed in. hen she felt the need to die he would be there and give her reason to live. when she sobbed he would appear to turn them to tears of joy and love.

xx. she began to sob again, thick heavy sobs; but this time he felt no sadness. only the glowing warmth of belonging and need for him as well. he had not felt this way before but he loved her with all of his essence. his aura surrounded her, his over-sized heart beat faster and his need subsided. his nose filled with her scent and it wrapped him in a blanket of her. he leaned down to her and licked away her happy tears too, curling himself around her. his body was much larger than hers so his massive body warmed every inch of hers and he lay like that, listening to her heart beat and breathing.

xx. disaster... i'll love you forever and i'll always be here to make you happy. never will i leave you, i've never felt this before and its a feeling ill cherish. he wanted to say this, but he thought maybe she was asleep, he would save that for the morning.

[fluttertorn]

xx. she was not afraid. with a small feeling of safety; the she-cat pressed deeper into the warmth he gave off. and the night didn't seem so dark anymore. nothing to fear or hide from. but something to lurk for the hours of her solitude. she would feel the pain again. but how long from now? she flicked her ears as she laid curled between his body. she laid her head against his leopard like body and closed her eyes yet again. the lonely feelings seemed to overtake her as she laid there with her eyes closed. but no tears fell. she opened her eyes to remind herself that this was real before finally drifting into a gentle and relaxed sleep. but the pain was far from over. and she knew that.

xx. stupid worthless thing. that was all she ever was. from the day she had been found at the pet shop by her owners to the time she had decided to escape and run away. she had many objects thrown her way and many other things. with a few brief tears; she flicked her eyes and stared at the ground beneath her feet. she was alone from now on... with a small cry; the femme jolted awake; her teal eyes blinking around the den as quiet tears rolled down her face. she nuzzled herself into his fur; looking for comfort; only to find that she thought he was asleep. no comfort would come then. and the loneliness sank farther and farther into her.